Thoughts on my feet

 (A photo of the lovely Lane children)

I've always had weird issues with my feet.  We haven't always gotten along throughout our years of being together.  but I must say, in spite of our issues I am kind of attached.  Here are a few things that have either gone wrong or have just...happened with me and my feet.

• The growth plates in my toes closed early.  Each of my toes is almost half the size that they should be.  When the Dr. found out he told me that I had "shrimp toes." Personally, I don't mind having shorty toes and I'm pretty fond of their height.  Sometimes I look at them and worry that they have grown.  I don't know what I would do with myself if that happened.  
• I broke my heal from jumping into.......a SWIMMING POOL......yes, a swimming pool when I was on a family vacation driving across the United States. CA to NC.  
• I don't know exactly how I old I was...but a lonnnng time ago I got a plantar wart on the bottom of my foot and was stuck with it....forever. I had it surgically cut out at least five times, injected it with shots of chemo.  experienced what it felt like to have my foot numbed from the top down.  (yes, that means a needle was put through the top of my foot into the bottom.) and last but not least, in 2008 when the numbing and cutting holes into the bottom of my foot was too painful and inconvenient to deal with every few months, the dr. decided to put me to sleep and cut it out deeply so that it would finally go away.  Instead, I went into anaphylactic shock from an allergic reaction to anti biotics, was pumped full of steroids to counter it and keep me alive, and the wart came back a few months later.  I think he's finally given up though.  I've conquered our long little battle.  =)
• I also have low blood circulation in my hands and feet so when I get cold my toes go completely numb, turn white or blue and take a long time to warm back up.  Ive had blisters under my skin on my big toes a few times from being so cold.
• And last, I tore the ligament in my foot while running last new year's eve and didn't take care of it until the very end of  January.  It was...uncomfortable.  

So there's a few of our issues.  And I know you are probably thinking "What is the point?  Why are you blogging about your feet?  Stop.  It's gross." But the bottom line is that I love my feet, everything that's happened to them and all.   I love that I can wiggle my toes and wear slippers and super soft socks and make them warm and I love that I can paint my toenails and wear sandals and get tan lines on them.  I know this is random and I understand that it's a little bit gross to talk about feet, but I was putting lotion on them a few minutes ago and started thinking about everything that has happened involving them and that I was actually grateful for it all.  That's it.  =)

Looking on the bright side.

Today has not been a good day.  Last night I stayed up until Two o'clock AM studying for a quiz in my painting class.  So naturally, getting up at six thirty in the morning felt like the hardest thing to do..ever.  Somehow though I was eventually able to drag myself out of bed, get ready for class, AND walk there on time to take the quiz.  And then I failed.  Yep! I got a D. After all that studying and staying up late..I failed.  Luckily my teacher is awesome and said that whatever grade we received we could raise a whole grade higher so I actually ended up with a C, but it was still a big bummer. 

After that, I walked back to my dorm, crawled under my covers, and slept for three more hours before my next class.  When I woke up I was feeling a little bit better.  More rested with only a minor headache..(Int seems like I'm never without them anymore).  I turned on my lap top to check my email and I finally got the news on the mail room position that I've been waiting for.  I think it went something like this: "Sorry but, nope!"  I have been waiting and PRAYING and hoping and praying and waiting and praying some more that I would get that job.  It seemed perfect...and out of the twenty or more applications and resumes I have submitted to different places,  it was the only place that has even responded.  I was/am so frustrated and discouraged.  I'm not even sure what to do now. 

But although all this..crap happened today and I feel small and lonely and like my eyes might just start leaking at any moment, I am trying to focus on some good things instead..So I am going to list them!

1.  It's December. aka: CHRISTMAS!
2.  I have ONE day of school left.
3.  All my projects are done and turned in early.
4.  I have no finals.
5.  I get to be at home from DEC 8th to January...something.  (Not quite sure yet.)
6.  I turn 21 in nine days.
7.  I ate green beans today.
8.  And....it's CHRISTMAS time! (because it deserves to be on here twice.)

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