Dear Baby

NOTE:  I am NOT pregnant. 

Today a baby threw up on me.  So naturally, the thought that followed was to write MY baby a love letter that I can share with it in the future.  Here is what will probably be the first of many.

Dear baby,

While you may not exist yet, I think of you, long for you, get excited about you, and ache to have you often.  I can’t wait for you to come into my life and change my world.  You will be perfect.   I’m not sure I can even express how much I crave to hold you in my arms tightly and safely against me.  To cuddle you.  To kiss you a million times and then kiss you a million times after that, and after that, and after that.  To give you baths.  To feed you.  To hold your little feet in my hands and kiss your toes.  To watch you grow and get the cutest fat rolls on your arms and thighs.  To hear you cry and laugh and make baby noises.  To watch you discover and learn.  To see you grow strong and crawl and walk.  To hear you say mine and Daddy’s names.  Your daddy and I, (while I may not be sure of who he is yet) will love you unconditionally and forever.  Mommy is a clean freak and does NOT like messy dirty germs but I will love you when you’re messy.  I will love you when you throw up on me.  I will love you when I change your diapers.  I will love you when you’re sticky.  I will love you when you’re smelly.  I will love you after you have discovered how good cake is.  You will be so loved, baby.  You will have the best grandparents that any baby could have and you will grow up having the most amazing aunts and uncle possible.  I hope and pray with all my heart that you will know just how much you’re loved from the moment we meet.  My heart aches to have you, to fall in love with you, and to learn how to be a good mommy for you.   I know I still have a while before that can happen..but it’s ok.  I have a lot to learn before you can rock my world…and until then I promise I will be anxiously waiting, learning, growing, and preparing for you until the day you arrive. 

I love you always,

Mommy