Thoughts.

I feel like....A punching bag.  I've been hit over and over and over and over again this week and I am tired.  Long days and little amounts of sleep and a hurting heart and on the verge of tears at any given moment in the day.  It's been rough and it's already Saturday which means that I have to back to school tomorrow.  This semester is starting out bad.  I shouldn't feel this way.  Part of me is happy to be in school.  To get one more semester finished...to get closer to being done and doing what I actually want to be doing.  But at the same time, part of me just feels like I can't do it.  I. Am. Exhausted.  My dreams feel farther and farther away as time passes and all the while people around me are moving forward and away leaving me behind to what?  To sit at a small desk and listen to someone talk about...nothing for hours? Right now I am cynical and moody and sad and hurting and.....you name it. That's not how I should be..I know.  I should be happy and energetic and hopeful and bright or whatever fuzzy feeling that comes to your mind..but things just seem bleak..and it sucks...and for now, I'm not quite sure how it's going to get better yet.  I hope your week was great and that your weekend is even better.